This video was made shortly after my sweet Oliver was born.
Oliver is our sunshine!
We officially have a date for Oliver’s open-heart surgery. It is scheduled for August 17that 0730. We will be arriving to the hospital at 0600. The surgery is expected to take 4-5 hours. I thought I would be relieved to have a date in the books. Honestly, I was completely wrong. The surgeon’s nurse called me while I was at work. After getting off the phone with her, I was shaking. It is like all the fear of what could go wrong hit me all at once. Luke and I have discussed the benefits and the risks of the surgery with the cardiologist. Not having the surgery is not an option. Oliver would be lucky to make it to the age of 5 without the repairs. As a nurse, I constantly trust in medicine and technology. I comfort my patients. I keep them focused on the goal. I give them hope. I never, ever make promises that I cannot keep. Now, I am on the other side. It is my baby in the hands of the medical professionals. I am scared! I am afraid of the possibilities of seizures, arrhythmias, or a heart block. I am afraid of Oliver not making it out of the surgery. I am afraid of not being able to hold him, smell him, kiss him, or look into his big blue eyes again. I have absolutely no control over this situation!
Oliver has been surrendered to a higher power. I had to surrender Oliver to God when he was in my belly. He is God’s child. God has entrusted his care to me. I am only a tool in raising this little boy in the way our Heavenly Father has ordained. I have to constantly remind myself to have faith that God’s plan is bigger than my plan, that God knows the desires of my heart, and that God hears my cries. I thank God every day for the time I get to spend with this amazing child. For Oliver was and is fearfully and wonderfully made.
Adventures of the Kuhns 
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